A Little Summary, and a Little Lackluster

June 15, 2018

We’ll, I’ve reached the end of one year. Packing up, I thought to myself that working life was a rather poor bargain… that after one year, I didn’t really have a great deal to show for it.  I wondered whether I improved myself in any significant or substantive way… and I couldn’t really say that…

Anxious

June 4, 2018

I’ve spent a fair bit of time deliberating on whether I should go to some social event.  It’s interesting how I phrase it really… as “whether I should go”.  Of course, I suppose I really should… it does almost seem obligatory.  And of course… if I then entertain the question – which barely needs to…

A Clearing?

June 4, 2018

I can’t even tell if I’m at impasse anymore – I only feel a little nervous tension in my gut. I think of what I must prepare for… whether I must prepare for it… and in the back of my mind I have to admit, I do think about fleeing the whole situation.  Once again,…

A Little Forlorn

May 30, 2018

I’m in something of a sour mood.  I’m writing from my desk, my “work desk” I suppose… and although I so often feel that there can be no true words written here… or that the words that I do write fall lifeless to the ground… I still feel like writing. I don’t exactly know what…

An Impasse

May 26, 2018

I don’t know I’ve reached something of an impasse.  I don’t if I’ll quietly come to an impasse, find myself conflicted, and out of inertia or indolence, find myself going down the past of least resistance.  I don’t mean to feel sorry for myself, althoughit often sounds like I am constantly moping when writing here.…

Marionnette

May 3, 2018

I know I’m terribly abused here.  Every time I leave, I realize how badly I needed to get away.  Not long after leaving the grounds I come to my senses, and begin to see with a little more clarity.  I wake up to my rights in some way and realize what I’ve missed.  I question…

A Day Without Internet

April 21, 2018

I’m once again reminded that the internet – the great bastion of freedom – is not so free.  I’m typing behind the Great Firewall at the moment with a connection that can barely go above 40kB/s.  I remember once being amazed at those speeds about twenty years ago. Things really aren’t so bad here, but…

A Little Desultory

April 18, 2018

It’s been quite a while.  I don’t know why it’s taken so long to write, especially since I rather liked what I’d written before… I’ve thought of a few things in the intervening time.  Poignantly, I thought to myself, after laughing lightheartedly and enjoying a rather tender moment, that even in these tender moments I…

A Few Scattered Thoughts

April 6, 2018

It’s a little late at night – not too late, but… relatively late. There’s noise in the next room over.  I wonder whether it’s tied to the events of the day and my mind turns a little.  I think, perhaps it is, but, I shouldn’t be concerned with these things. I thought today that I…

A Little Limp

April 6, 2018

I thought earlier of sharing this website with one close to me, but I’ve since pulled back – at least for now. I was contacted earlier by a close friend, and my response was rather cheerful.  The friend enquired how I was, and I communicated how things were “on the up and up” and that…

Vespers

March 31, 2018

I feel a little lonely at the moment.  It’s strange being so far away from those that are closest to me, that provide me with a sense of self and some stability.  I see and remember myself and who I am partly through their eyes, and their expectations of me, which has I suppose been…

Reminiscing

March 25, 2018

I should get down do it. Really, there isn’t too much pressing at the moment, but there is a fair bit of work looming on the horizon.  I’ll get it done in good time, although I may drag my ass I suppose.  I’m tired of giving over so much of myself, and I know… or…

A Rather Aimless Post

March 24, 2018

I wonder if I’m allowed to say such things… [In response to previous title] I thought earlier about sharing my website with a few close friends, but I wonder how that might alter the trajectory of this project.  To be free, or to simply say outrageous things… that’s not entirely the goal. By the way,…

Cuntsplash, or A Letter to My Future Employer

March 22, 2018

Manic – I’m a little… yes… fucking manic.  I can’t say who I am, and I wonder how that question even enters or becomes liminal. There are still things I can’t say here, which is a G-ddamned shame.  It’s a little poignant as well, and maybe something of a social comment.  I’m prevented from saying…

Searchin’

March 18, 2018

It’s about time that I get down to it… and begin to productive… set myself up for the week and ease a transition to those sweet two days of relative freedom. I need to calm myself somewhat.  I’ve always been troubled, and when thinking about that fact today early on, it helped to ease my…

A Little Summary, and a Little Lackluster

June 15, 2018

Anxious

June 4, 2018

A Clearing?

June 4, 2018

A Little Forlorn

May 30, 2018

An Impasse

May 26, 2018

Marionnette

May 3, 2018

A Day Without Internet

April 21, 2018

A Little Desultory

April 18, 2018

A Few Scattered Thoughts

April 6, 2018

A Little Limp

April 6, 2018

Vespers

March 31, 2018

Reminiscing

March 25, 2018

A Rather Aimless Post

March 24, 2018

Cuntsplash, or A Letter to My Future Employer

March 22, 2018

Searchin’

March 18, 2018

Restlessness

By Anaxagoras | February 8, 2017

I’m somewhat tired of the layout of my webpage at the moment.  I don’t exactly want to start from scratch and begin again, but I’m restless nonetheless. It’s hard for me to find the right words in the moment.  Just last week I felt myself to be an author and I was proud of this.…

Mid-day Post

By Anaxagoras | February 7, 2017

I don’t have much to say at the moment.  I think I write here… just to loosen things up I suppose.  I’d like to get started on writing today, but I can’t find the words too easily.  I don’t exactly feel inspired.  It would be too much to say that I’m listless, but I find myself…

Another Post

By Anaxagoras | February 6, 2017

I know, I know, another post – it’s hard to believe.  Not many people are reading these anyways, and that’s probably the understatement of the day.  But I feel the urge to write at any rate, maybe to ease my mind – and so here I am.  I’m not exactly consumed by anything at the…

What’s on the Internet Is There Forever

By Anaxagoras | February 6, 2017

What’s you write on the internet is there forever.  This axiomatic like statement, this truth still haunts me and plays with my idea of freedom.  The idea that what I say in the past, in one particular moment – expressing and putting into words a haphazard thought that happens to cross my mind – could…

A Little Dull

By Anaxagoras | February 6, 2017

I feel a little dull – a little distant from myself.  I can’t quite grasp the words at the moment, there are few peaks and valleys.  I saw a girl dressed up as Olivia Newton John today.  She spoke quite well and eloquently.  I’m still a little concerned about my privacy.  It’s still early in the…

Writing the Illicit

By Anaxagoras | February 6, 2017

I had a casual conversation with someone today about online privacy.  Adamantly, and with a certain force, the person I was speaking with said “whatever you post online is there forever”.  The idea of transparent, of being marked in some way caused me a fair bit of anxiety in the moment.  This is perhaps another…

I’ve Had an Argument

By Anaxagoras | February 5, 2017

An argument might be too much, I suppose it was more of a dispute, and maybe then, not even that.  It was the worst kind of confrontation or disagreement – one over the internet, and against a mod of all people.  I knew I could be silenced and my post deleted if I pressed him…

It’s Somewhat Late

By Anaxagoras | February 4, 2017

It’s somewhat late at night, and I feel enervated.  I don’t exactly feel bad, or ill by any means, but I do feel a little lost.  My head is a little foggy and I wait for the time pass, so that I might go to sleep again. It’s been a good day.

I Need to Write Something

By Anaxagoras | February 3, 2017

I need to write something.  I’m going stir crazy setting up this website, going through the troubleshooting, and making all kinds of minor adjustments before I throw it all out again.  So I need to write a quick word, as a balm, as a salve, or simply to calm myself. I think of writing a…

On the Re-release of Mein Kampf

By Anaxagoras | February 2, 2017

[et_pb_section admin_label=”section”][et_pb_row admin_label=”row”][et_pb_column type=”4_4″][et_pb_text admin_label=”Text”] It’s difficult to write a word on Mein Kampf, Hitler, or nearly anything related to National Socialism.  To even raise the question of what can and can’t be said is probably already to cast undue suspicion on oneself.  Perhaps it’s a tiring question anyways, with proponents on each side citing “the obvious…